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Ever had those moments when you wish you could pull a veil over you and just make you disappear from the face of the earth?

Time for another post methinks!!!

Another two interesting days!
Saturday was relaxing.. started off the day with a good breakfast and a ride around the farm on the Yamaha.. was very nice and the air was beautifully clean (unlike Sydney air, which you can rub between your fingers then smear on your jeans). After fixing the chain, which fell off half – way, I gunned the bike to the top of the biggest hill in the property, sat on the top and looked over half of the Central Tablelands. Of course, being so high up, I had to make a phone call!! First tried Ryan, but of course the lazy bugger was asleep after getting drunk the night before :p So I sent him an SMS explaining where I was.. then called Sarah and enquired as to what she was doing, and also me good mate Dave!! Was pleasing to hear that everyone was in good spirits.
The rest of the day.. didn’t do much..attempted the java project, but fat lot of good that was.
Came home about 7pm after dropping by Krispy Kreme (ewww.. felt so sick afterwards.. NO MORE!!!) and then driving home, to chat to Baldy, talk to Ryan (as usual)… and hmm.. not do much else! The java project was getting stuck.. couldn’t make it work.
But TODAY!! well., been battling on that cursed project.. and finally got it to work.. yes.. Gus found the elusive bug and fixed it 2 minutes before the presentation!! Thankfully it was all good, the presentation went really well

And atm I am still coughing my guts up ‘cos I haven’t had any ciggies for quite a few days now and it’s starting to show!!
is good though.. I hope I can do it!!

post more later.. am hopefully going to go see my boy tonight!!! *dances little happy dance*
Byeeee!!!

*mwa*

Hiiiiiyyya all!!!!!

Well, as it stands, I am writing this on a laptop sitting in an old cottage study 10kms from Oberon, NSW. Using a dicey old 33kb/s phone line, connected (OF COURSE) to my faithful computer using terminal services. It’s nice here. I am ACTUALLY getting some study done, which is really REALLY wierd for me! and the country air is doing me good

Well.. the past 24 hours have been.. well.. interesting!! And sorry boys and girls.. I have a diary now and I shall write it all down!
Well, After finally laying down the rules of the land to Ry.. heh heh (I gave up waiting for him to ask me , I just went and asked him) I decided I would spend some hard-earned money in a “ME” day! So… went and got my hair cut.. looks really good but now it’s more expensive than it used to be!! Ishall shop around more in future. Then a BIG session at the solarium.. 25 minutes.. I got nice n’ tanned but I think I ended up with sunstroke….
Anyway, then up north to see Ryan…. I was planning the night out as I drove… I took him for a drive dopwn to the coast, he’s always going on about KFC, so I took him to the KFC in Mona Vale, then drove him to Palm Beach to eat it whilst sitting on the sand. Not before,however, I gave him that necklace I made for him I was so proud.. it looked really good on him… I just wonder if he’ll keep it on… heh heh i’m not making any expectations! :p
But yeah.. mucho cuto and sweet sitting on the beach, watching the waves and chatting… mmmm.. So So So So So So cute. *sigh*
I have a lot of faith in that dear boy and his potential… and our potential too!

Woke up earlish this morning, and got my stuff together to drive out here to Oberon. I did not wake up well.. had major headache, and that WAS NOT helped by the convoy of grannies and grandpas out for a weekend drive on the Bells Line of Road. And THEN.. I had the distinct pleasure of having the speedometer fail whilst coming up to Mt Victoria, and 2 minutes later drove straight past a cop who thankfully was booking someone else. But yeah.. now I got a broken car! :’(

Oh well.. got to Oberon OK and mum fed me up and gave me a panadol. went to sleep until 1:30! Got stuffed full of food again (parents are good for that)… and then did some ACTUAL uni work! *gasp*

BUT! The highlight of the day.. just went out hunting with dad, and managed to come across the family of pigs that had been reported to be in the area. Gus goes into full stalk mode (hunting style, not saturday night style), .223 in the hand, leather jacket on, flanalette shirt (yesyes I know), commando-hopping behind tussocks up to a group of 5 150-kg wild pigs. I took aim at about 150-200m, fired, it hit the mark, and the others broke for cover. Was about to get the other one, but they ran around so the sun was in my eyes! no fair!
But anyway, managed to get a sow, which was good, and knocked off a bunny on the way home just for good luck.

Anyway.. am going to get more work done tonight, have a good sleep and a meal, and we’ll see what tomorrow brings! There’s a lovely log fire here.. i’ve been dreaming all day of curling up in front of that with Ryan… *sigh*

Bye bye all!!!!! ’till next time!!

*mwa*

(Excerpt from Unkown Author)

We convince ourselves that life will be better after we get married, have a baby, then another. Then we are frustrated that the kids aren’t old enough and we’ll be more content when they are. After that, we’re frustrated that we have teenagers to deal with. We will certainly be happy when they are out of that stage. We tell ourselves that our life will be complete when our spouse gets his or her act together, when we get a nicer car, are able to go on a nice vacation, when we retire. The truth is, there’s no better time to be happy than right now. If not now, when?

Your life will always be filled with challenges. It’s best to admit this to yourself and decide to be happy anyway. One of my favorite quotes comes from Alfred D. Souza. He said, “For a long time it had seemed to me that life was about to begin – real life. But there was always some obstacle in the way, something to be gotten through first, some unfinished business, time still to be served, or a debt to be paid. Then life would begin. At last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life.”

This perspective has helped me to see that there is no way to happiness. Happiness is the way. So, treasure every moment that you have and treasure it more because you shared it with someone special, special enough to spend your time with… and remember that time waits for no one.

So, stop waiting until you finish school, until you go back to school, until you lose ten pounds, until you gain ten pounds, until you have kids, until your kids leave the house, until you start work, until you retire, until you get married, until you get divorced, until Friday night, until Sunday morning, until you get a new car or home, until your car or home is paid off, until spring, until summer, until fall, until winter, until you are off welfare, until the first or fifteenth, until your song comes on, until you’ve had a drink, until you’ve sobered up, until you die, until you are born again to decide that there is no better time than right now to be happy.

Happiness is a journey, not a destination. Work like you don’t need money; Love like you’ve never been hurt; And dance like no one’s watching.

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Well !!!! where to start?
Hmmm.. I suppose it all started with Friday night (cue harp music and shape-shifting screen effects)
Had a really really good performance Friday night, better than thursday night and with a better crowd!!
Then saturday.. well.. finished off the main part of my VB assignment early morning, all coding was done, all working, etc etc. So treated myself by going down to the beach with Dave and Sandy. Yes, the clouds came over, but this did not deter us, we, the hardcore beachgoers us. Naturally, we all ended up in the Coogee Bay Hotel for Oktoberfest celebrations….
And then Gus came up with his unified theory of Chiko Rolls.

The Chiko Roll is not all it seems to be. Sold harmlessly by that kind man Mustafa in the Fish n’ Chip Shop and eaten by many around the world, it is not realised (save for the visions of the author here) that it will be Chiko Rolls that will save, but also destroy the earth.

For we do not know exactly what is IN a Chiko Roll… it is a wonder and miracle of nature. What this author has realised, however, is that the Chiko Roll is responsible for containing the “X” Factor, a chemical not yet discovered. The properties of the X Factor are known though.. it can produce great amounts of energy, explosive gaseous emissions and heat, when combusted or combined with other chemicals, that is disproportionate to the roll’s size and mass. There will be a day, and it HAS been forseen, that the world’s nuclear reactors, coal power plants and even solar generators will be replaced by Chiko Roll Reactors (CRR). These reactors combine not only the unique properties and unimaginable chemical and nuclear compositions of Chicko Rolls but also that of McDonald’s BBQ Sauce, producing enough energy to power entire cities.

The uses of the Chiko Roll are endless. They can be used in space travel, for their light weight and unbelieveable power can cause spaceships to reach near the velocity of light (the sub-space nuclear properties of Chiko Rolls do not get discovered for many millennia) Planets can then be colonised, because energy can be so freely supplied by a single fish n’ chip shop set up upon landing on the planet (manned by one of Mustafa’s cousins, Mustafa). The human population then multiplies, and the Chiko Roll even finds its way into the area of Health, where it is discovered that the unique makeup of a Chiko Roll can prevent cancer and cause the body to regenerate 10 times faster.

Alas though. It will also be our doom. On a colonised planet near Alpha Centauri… Mustafa makes the unwitting mistake of mashing two Chiko Rolls (covered in McDonald’s BBQ Sauce) together in his Fish n’ Chip shop into an unidentifiable lump. The two Rolls undergo matter – antimatter annihlation, and what results is complete matter to energy conversion that results in a blast of energy greater than a supernova. The planet is converted to a black hole, and the entire solar system surround the planet is crushed to a singularity. Unfortunately, at the same time, Mustafa was on the phone to his brother Mustafa down on Earth, and was telling him about his new recipe for Chiko Roll Souffle, with BBQ sauce glaze. Earth is no more.

So beware the Chiko Roll. Beauty, taste, power and fortune, it is also our ultimate destroyer.

Ok, so from the beach I come back, make myself look beautiful and go and meet Ryan at newtown station. I saw him there.. he looked so gorgeous I wanted to kiss him there and then, outside the station! But I guess I must be a little reserved… behave Gussy!!! Anyway, bringing him back after a meal at Burgerlicious, I left him in the good hands of Dave and went to get ready for my performance. The performance, of course, went off almost perfectly, and the crowd was raving about it. Ohh.. and one comment on an audience member.. I shall put in another LJ Cut so as not to ruin the mood….

After I got off stage, everone was in raptures. I was getting my hand shaken by nearly everyone I walked past. Alumni puling me over, my friends giving me hugs. And Cara, who, I thought, was at least supportive and a friend. I was discussing how wierd it would be without the play, considering how much time we put into it. Then she says “oh gus don’t worry, it wouldn’t matter to you, ‘cos your a really shit actor anyway”. I stopped in my tracks. THEN she tries to dig herself out of a hole and say “oh, you’re just too camp to be on stage”. I almost lost it there, if it wasn’t for Ryan standing right beside me Then she had the hide to say to Sam “oh, thank god I wasn’t in the play”. Btw.. fyi, (Cara tried out for the play and didn’t get in) I didn’t let it get to me.. but on the final night, no matter how shit you were, it’s your night of fame and popularity!!! that type of shit just wasn’t on

So back to the story….
Yes, after the play, ended up having drinks with Alumni, which I invited Ryan to (after all, other cast members brought their partners, so I did too!). And then the cast party, which involved a bit of drinking I must say!
That was ok, left that at about 3:30 and dragged Ryan off with me Slept for a few hours, then woke up, with my arms around him *siiiigh*, and felt at peace with the world Nothing could destroy that moment! And then watched a few movies and episodes of “scrubs”.. then got Ryan breakfast in bed (aren’t I a good bf), complete with Bacon, eggs, spaghetti, left-over stir-fry, muffins, toast and Orange Juice Then decided to make a move on the day, took Ryan to coffee at Campos, then drove him up north to St Ives. Spent an hour or two at home with the folks, and came back down to Sydney, finished off the goup assignment and submitted it, and here I am! *sigh*
What a weekend!!!

And things are going so well between me and Ryan… I must remind myself to pace myself and not rush (thank you Nate.. is good advice! ) .. but hopefully now that I have free time, things will go so much better I think there is a lot to Ryan… and over time I will discover new things all the time.

anyway, Gussy off to bed now!!! *mwa* to all, and a a hug thrown in ‘cos i’m in a good mood!

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YAY! the first night is over! The play went really well… no stuff-ups.. I just gotta remember not to laugh on stage! *calm gus.. just think of that sad place…*
But yeah… sooooo relieving that the first night is done.. one performance out of the way.. and by the last act they were laughing their heads off!! It was sooooo goood!!!!

I’ve had a few Rum n’ Cokes, so I don’t know how coherent this post will be, but it has let me be able to say exactly what is on my mind! I have been thinking of Ryan a lot lately. I smile every time I talk to him. Even when he is stressed, anxious, whatever. I don’t know why.. it is unsual for me!! I don’t know.. something is different. I can’t explain it. But something is making me really really REALLY looking forward to seeing him on Saturday. I have never felt like this about someone.
Of course, my alarm bells ring every now and then.. I know he’s been busy… I get worried sometimes that I’m a bit too affectionate in my messages to him, making him think that I’m really camp or something. And his messages back are a bit more reserved. But that’s nothing really.. it’s all good! And of course I get worried that I scare him, he doesn’t feel the same way, etc etc etc. But that’s all to be expected.. I will keep my faith 38 hours.. then I will be able to see him on a much more regular basis. And all will be good! I am so much better in person.. it has been effectively 2 weeks since we have been together for any prolonged period of time. Maybe I am arrogant in that way.. I think as soon as I see him it will all be right, because I can’t really express myself over MSN or the phone.

Anyway, enough of that! I did heaps of VB today, am feeling proud. I really gotta start going back to uni… I MUST keep this scholarship.. that means a CR average!!!!!!

anyway, enough for tonight! I’m really quite happy! Rum does that to me :p
heh heh heh

big *mwa*s to all, and a special one flying around the ether for Ryan….

satty night.. the anticipation is killing me!