YAY! the first night is over! The play went really well… no stuff-ups.. I just gotta remember not to laugh on stage! *calm gus.. just think of that sad place…*
But yeah… sooooo relieving that the first night is done.. one performance out of the way.. and by the last act they were laughing their heads off!! It was sooooo goood!!!!

I’ve had a few Rum n’ Cokes, so I don’t know how coherent this post will be, but it has let me be able to say exactly what is on my mind! I have been thinking of Ryan a lot lately. I smile every time I talk to him. Even when he is stressed, anxious, whatever. I don’t know why.. it is unsual for me!! I don’t know.. something is different. I can’t explain it. But something is making me really really REALLY looking forward to seeing him on Saturday. I have never felt like this about someone.
Of course, my alarm bells ring every now and then.. I know he’s been busy… I get worried sometimes that I’m a bit too affectionate in my messages to him, making him think that I’m really camp or something. And his messages back are a bit more reserved. But that’s nothing really.. it’s all good! And of course I get worried that I scare him, he doesn’t feel the same way, etc etc etc. But that’s all to be expected.. I will keep my faith 38 hours.. then I will be able to see him on a much more regular basis. And all will be good! I am so much better in person.. it has been effectively 2 weeks since we have been together for any prolonged period of time. Maybe I am arrogant in that way.. I think as soon as I see him it will all be right, because I can’t really express myself over MSN or the phone.

Anyway, enough of that! I did heaps of VB today, am feeling proud. I really gotta start going back to uni… I MUST keep this scholarship.. that means a CR average!!!!!!

anyway, enough for tonight! I’m really quite happy! Rum does that to me :p
heh heh heh

big *mwa*s to all, and a special one flying around the ether for Ryan….