VolaciousNet

I would have to be one of the dumbest people.
So far in two days:

Whilst waking from detached sleep, I decided to grab the sheets and quickly roll with it, to try wrest sheet domination from the very stubborn yet unconscious Adam. The next thing I know I was on the floor, having just fallen off the bed. Adam promptly wakes up, curious to know why there’s a dazed and confused husband on the floor.

This is just a short post tonight… am quite tired and our final inspection is tomorrow. The cleaners are in at Alexandria, whining about the state of the apartment, but I’m really not giving much sympathy considering the extortionist rates I’m having to pay. I just want it to be oooovvvvveeeeeeeerrrrr! I have sworn not to move house for at least another 2 years.

Adam has posted a large yet important post in his livejournal… Link Here
I have a big thoughtful post to come, but at the moment banal posts seem to be more my style….

I have designed a logo for my new company… tell me what you think !

Logo for VolaciousNet Pty Ltd

What do you think? It’s just my first idea, and I kind like it….

Helloooooooooo world!!!
Volacious.Net.Au is back on the air!!!
Yes, that means that I’ve FINALLY gotten ADSL connected again! For a few scary days, I was suffering the torture of all tortures…. dial-up!!!
I’ve lost about 2 weeks worth of email, but hey, you get that.

Over the time, I few people have said “hey… you’re an Aussie… does that mean you have an Aussie accent?”. So I decided I would do a “phone post”, or rather, record my voice to file and post that instead! heh heh heh heh

So here it is!!!

Click here to listen

I’ve had a big night getting everything working again, and thanks must go to for being my site tester as I *finally* got my guestbook running again! Also, I think the site is running much faster in general than it did before, probably because I’m going through a far superior ISP. For those of you who haven’t discovered Exetel, you’re missing out.

Well, enough of the geekiness. I have a house to clean tonight, and I don’t care if I have to be up all night to do it. I want my hubby to have a surprise when he comes home tomorrow night.
For those of you in Sydney, keep the 11th of March free. I’ll tell you why later!!

Keep on truckin’ !!!

Gus

Poor LiveJournal. How I have neglected thee.
It’s very difficult when you’re on dialup modem to deal with my friends page, particularly when people seem obsesses with posting 8 similar photos of themselves that they took with a webcam. But enough of my bitching! Just give me ADSL already! Bloody Telstra…

Married life seems to be treating me quite well so far. The past week has been busy, but also quite enjoyable! We haven’t quite gotten everything out of boxes yet, though have set up the furniture. Oh my… the quality of Chinese mass production!!! Thank god I had a power drill, which has worked wonders when dealing with parts that simply don’t fit together. It’s all together though, and looking quite fancy, I have to say!

Adam and I have grown even closer than we were before, and whilst I realise that it’s still early times in our new living arrangements, I’m enjoying it immensely and I’m pretty sure he is too. We have even discovered the joys of neighbours… particularly ours next door who yell at each other 24/7. I’m not sure if I am obligated to call the police if I hear someone being hit… what’s the go there?

I missed out on Fair Day yesterday because of work. Couldn’t really turn down 6 hours of Sunday pay! And at a place like the Australian Golf Club… well… couldn’t ask for much more. The event though was very interesting…. it was a 50 year golden anniversary. 50 years married! I can’t even comprehend that amount of time. The event, however, concreted firmly in my mind why I detest the kind of wealth-orientated morally conservative household and society that I grew up in. The couple that were celebrating their anniversary… they didn’t so much as look at each other the entire night. No hand-on-hand, and least of all no kiss. No affection whatsoever. Whilst cutting the cake, the grandkids called out “kiss ! kiss !”, which promptly caused the couple to back away from each other. This was their 50 year anniversary!! You could have frozen ice on his wife’s arse. Their speeches outlined the perfect stereotypical north shore life: Went to a private school, married an eminantely suitable girl, had a boy (AFTER the marriage of course!), then a girl, then whiled away their years in a north shore house complete with white picket fence. According to the speech, the down point of their lives was when their parents, aged approx. 90 years old, died. Whilst I accept that the death of anyone is sad, if that’s the saddest thing they’ve had to go through, then they should thank their lucky stars.

I went to school with the well-established elite of Sydney… some of whom are already heavily involved in politics, one already on the council of Woollahra. Some already earning $70,000 + and one or two already into six figures. The tinge of blue blood that runs through my veins wants to experience wealth and success, but part of me shudders to think that if I follow those footsteps I will end up like that couple at their golden anniversary, so emotionally unaccomplished and inexperienced.

I will leave it here for the moment…. Adam is on the way home from uni so I am going to clean this place up a little and prepare myself for a barrage of kisses as he comes home. I’m deciding whether I will greet him a la Julia Roberts in Pretty Woman, i.e. wearing just a tie.

*mwa* to all !!!!

Well… here we are! It’s been a busy-as-all-hell weekend, and I’m still well and truly tired. My body clock just can’t make up its mind.
Sunday, the big move, went better than expected. I got up early, met Dad, and collected the truck. That’s right, Gussy behind the wheel of a 3-tonne container truck, hauling furniture all around Sydney. We did pretty well, and managed to move both Sarah’s and my things into place by 4pm, at which time we had to go and get ready for work. Never let it be said that last weekend was particularly easy!!! I was quite glad when we were knocked off early from the Johnny Farnham & Tom Jones concert.

Valentine’s Day was a little nondescript, but special in any case. Our only presents to each other was a single red rose, as finances and moving have prevented us from doing a lot more. We drove down to Bowral and attended a very upper-class charity photographic exhibition by one of Adam’s school friends. We returned home to our new place and enjoyed a bottle of Moet e Chandon sitting on our balcony and talking about the future.

Some quick notes on the weekend:

Time flies! We pick up the keys tomorrow to our brand-new apartment! Well… almost brand new… it’s 1 year old! heh heh
I’m so excited it’s funny.

Fears and hesitations have now been replaced by a determined ambition to make this work.
Half of my apartment is in boxes… it’s scary how much stuff I have!!! And I hate throwing away things too… always think “oh.. I might need this some day”.
We have an open house inspection coming through tomorrow, so I gotta get this place all tidied away because we will have Sydney randoms trampling through the house in the morning.

I’m going to have to dismantle poor Zeus to take her to the new place. We are going to lose our phone line on Monday, and with that email, since I host my own email server. Probably lose up to a week of email doing it, too. Le sigh!

Anyway, I have a huge craving for Pizza Shapes, chocolate and coffee. Catch ya on the other side!

It’s been a bit since I’ve updated this. I guess emotions have been extremely high lately… at one point I don’t know whether to write something about how happy I am, or how upset I am.

Life is like that, though.

No, I didn’t do anything naughty. Well, not that anyone else knows about…. heh heh heh heh
I spent half of Monday inside various police stations around Sydney. First in the morning I had to go and get my rifles and shotgun from Hornsby Police Station, where they had been keeping them since we sold our place in St Ives. I made a deal with my brother that we would sell his .22 Bruno Mk1, his Wermacht air rifle, and my Omark .308 target rifle in exchange for transferring the .223 Bruno 610 and Beretta double 12-gauge into my name. And let me tell you… I can see why Australia has the second strictest gun laws behind England! The amount of paperwork and running around, talking to police, and police bosses, and gun dealers…. it’s enough to do your head in !! Maybe it was worth it that I could walk through Hornsby with 4 rifles and a shotgun under my arm. Who knows….

The later that evening, we had to go and make a formal statement to Redfern Police after they rang us up and told us that they had made a positive fingerprint ID on the guy who broke into our apartment last year. Sarah was first to go in, and it took almost an hour!!! I found out why later… apparently the cop was hitting on her something savage, including leaning back and fingering his handcuffs whilst he talked to her. Lucky girl… she has always loved men in uniform…. heh heh

Well yes… the big step gets closer and closer. We pick up the keys on Saturday.
My last post mentioned that we signed the lease on Friday, but it failed to mention the huge array of emotions that have arose since then.
I guess I am very scared, and am taking a huge risk in wanting this to work. It’s such a big step for me, and now I’m committed to making it work. Finances seem to be the major sore point, and I guess it’s a big worry for both of us. Of course, a venture like this will pay off immensely if we can get it to work, but it’s going to take effort to keep it together. I think all will be right once we have moved, and have settled into a form of routine, and know what we can and can not afford.

I’m in the middle of packing at the moment, we have an open house inspection on Saturday. *sighs*

I’m still very excited by this year, and it has the potential to be one of the best on a new road in life. However, it is going to require self-discipline. Fortitide and focus, Gus.

We did it !!!
We signed our lives away!!
And went furniture shopping !

Oh my… what a huge day. First thing I remember is being barely awake, slapping on a pair of jeans and driving down to the agent to sign the lease. I think both of us were quite asleep at the point… it was over so quickly! I do remember, however, him signing his name right beside mine. Well… I think that’s about the closest we’re ever going to come to signing a marriage contract, so we’ve starting calling each other “Hubby”.

Hubby.

Husband.

Who would’a thought, huh??

Well.. that was a freaky thought! However, the next order of business was to go shopping, and furniture shopping at that, so the prospect of retail therapy made everything right again. With flatmate of year past and flatmate of year future present, it was off to the Moore Park Home-maker centre!!! Is there nothing that store doesn’t have? First stop Ikea… and believe it or not, we managed to walk out without buying anything! Then Freedom Furniture and Fantastic Furniture, where we managed to acquire a lovely 7-piece dining set for $300 and a 5-piece outdoors set for $240. SCORE !!!

Then came a big decision… was it time to get a new bed? The futon I have been sleeping has served me well, but the mattress needs replacement and the frame sits about 40 mm off the carpet. We found a beaaaauuuuutiful bed, complete with funky quilt, covers, pillows and mattress, for $999. I thought about it, and even talked to the parentals about it, and everyone agrees that it would be a worthwhile investment! So new bed for Gussy and Adz !!!!

This is going to be a big operation. The agent said we could probably have the keys on Saturday afternoon rather than Monday morning, which means we can start moving everything on Sunday week! Gussy is going to hire a 2-tonne truck, don a trucker’s cap, and haul some arse !!!! heh heh

Ohhhhh and guess whaaaaat… WE HAVE A BBQ !!!!!!
We now own an essential piece of Aussie furniture: a four-burner gas BBQ!!!! Ohhhhh… the parties we will have. Stay tuned for details on the housewarming!!!
*big hugz to all !!! *

There is nothing like the smell of a screaming cold front. It soothes all the anxieties… for a brief moment the dirty city traffic is washed away in a cleansing downpour and the sound of city freight is overwhelmed by exploding columns of cool, fresh air.

It is done. I went in this morning and put a holding deposit on the apartment, committing myself to signing a lease on Friday. I also wrote up and faxed off our official notice of termination for our current apartment.

Adam is excited, yet terrified. I don’t blame him… now that the circus of househunting is over, and we are committed to a place, I’m realising that I am terrified too ! It’s such a big step, for both of us really. and we are putting a lot of trust into each other, and faith that we can make this work. Although we are young, we are still terrified as to what we may lose. It’s quite ironic how the prospect of maintaining security can cause us to be insecure.

The trick to success over the next year is to hold the courage and fortitude to make our relationship work, as well as to resist pride when faced with a conflict. Adam and I are now well and truly long-term, and whilst we’ve agreed on what will happen in the event of a split, the prospect of it is still sobering.

In the past 10 months we’ve been together as a couple, we’ve come a long way in our own personal arenas. Adam has, in a lot of ways, been quite a blessing to me that my previous jaded persona never thought possible. However I have grown to love him for who he is, rather than what he does for me. I am facing again the concept of unconditional love, which I discovered only 2 years ago and still regard it as one of the most important discoveries of my life.

I have a lot of hopes and aspirations for this year. I have finally found motivation in my life, and importantly towards uni. I can imagine being happy this year. I have daydreams of waking up in the morning next to the person I love, getting that all-important coffee, riding my bike to uni and actually attending all day. Having lunch with friends and working on an assignment during the afternoon. Then coming home, when the boy and I take the dog for a walk. Dinner in front of the TV, do an hour or so of uni work, have some mindblowing sex then fall asleep in each other’s arms. We spur each other on, and provide a solid foundation so that we each achieve our goals. To think that this is a daydream that is on the verge of coming true.

Many people comment that we’re becoming “so married”, and we joke about it ourselves quite often. I think the fear of this relates to a conception that married life is monotonous and restrictive. Many a cynical husband has commented that they’ve been married for 10 years, yet they only give you 7 for murder. Well… I don’t want that either!!! Many people have said that a good relationship requires effort, and I think that the relationships described above by the cynical husbands are those where the effort is lacking. I have often thought that perhaps it is a good thing that queers don’t have the right to marry… it means that we cannot rely on a legal binding to do the work for us. We must make constantly put effort into making it work.

It’s not often that an Aquarian is afraid by the unkown… I think it’s worse for Adam, who as a Capricorn finds it difficult to facilitate large changes. I am willing however, to jump into the darkness, for it is only by taking a leap of faith that we find new roads to travel.

We got the place in Dulwich Hill !!! I have no idea how we managed to beat the other applicants, who got in last week, but we did! Was certainly a shock to me. The agent rang me at 4:50pm (whilst we were in the shower, no less), and told us that our application was successful, pending us putting down a reservation deposit tomorrow. Of course, I agreed to this wholeheartedly, whilst trying to imagine a way to conjure up $300 in 12 hours. I walked back to the shower, with a glum look on my face but as per usual I couldn’t keep a straight face any more than I could keep a straight anything else. I whispered in Addy’s ear “We got the place babe”. The look on his face… it was just to die for !!! The ecstatic expressions of glee and frantic waving of arms was beautiful too, if not slightly amusing!

So after I put on a deposit tomorrow, they will draw up the lease which will start on the 14th of February… Valentine’s Day no less!! (although not chosen for this purpose!) Adam has a bottle of Moet et Chandon champagne which we have agreed to crack open and enjoy, on our first night in our new place, in the monster-sized bathtub. I went to see Dad today and organized the transfer of the remainder of my birthday $14k into a new account that we opened at lunchtime today. I still have $6.5k left, some of which will have to pay bond interim before I get back my current lease’s bond. It’s disturbing how easy it is to spend $8k. Let’s hope I can keep what I have for the next time I have to move !!!!!

Well.. that’s all for the moment… Sabrina is on TV!!! It’s replaced The Simpsons for the 6pm spot, which means I will have to watch Neighbours in the middle.

It’s a tough life !!!