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3 posts in one night! Almost a record!

This is going to be probably my last post before I head off to JoeyGlide out in Leeton. I got a fair bit of preparation and planning done on the weekend, jury-rigging a few electrical systems and making sure I have all the pieces of the glider ready to go. I will be taking my camera with me this year, and it looks like there may be access to a relatively high-speed internet link, so I will be able to post photos from the competition!!!!

For all you lovely people that actually give a damn, there will be live results and even a webcam available at the competition website. My glider registration is HDZ, which is Bathurst Soaring Club’s DG-300 Elan.

In other news.. I’ve finally had some time to myself to actually enjoy a computer game! Something I have not had time to do for 4 months. I was considering catching up with friends today, but considering how many of them I have neglected over the past 4 months, as well as how many have neglected me, a day is simply not enough to do it, especially since I’m going away for another two weeks on Thursday. It will just all have to wait for a little.

So instead, I spent almost 7 hours today playing World of Warcraft, an epic game with a cult following that has taken me almost a year to get into. Originally, it was because my computer would not be able to handle it. However, my new twin 2.8 processors and the NVidia 6600GT graphics adaptor just chews through it like soft butter. I play a level 10 Gnome Warlock (with a pink beard naturally), who’s a miner, and, of course, an engineer. Typical.

Volacio doing the Gnome Dance

I’m really really starting to get irritated by this pathetic hype about the hanging of Nguyen Tuong Van

I know I got a whooole bunch of nasty little swipes last time I mentioned this drama, so I will undoubedly get them again.

What I don’t understand is what right we have to meddle in the affairs of another sovereign nation. Are we so arrogant to believe that we can put pressure on our neighbour to stop the hanging in the name of righteousness? The argument I originally put forward was not wether capital punishment was right or wrong, but that if you knowingly (ignorance is not an excuse) break a country’s laws, then you also agree to cop any punishment that breaking the law entails. How would Australia like it if the yanks swooped in and demanded that we release all American citizens from our jails, because they think it’s wrong? We would likely tell them to fuck off.

It annoys me to think that there are people who believe they have the moral right to intervene in other’s affairs. It’s happening more and more often now in international politics, and it scares me. Frankly I will be glad when the day is past, for the media will finally stop hyping up such a sad situation.

Again, I really have much to say, but alas I am cut short because of a sodding exam tomorrow.
I managed to get a supplementary, but alas I’m still well and truly underprepared. You’d think I’d put in some extra effort to stop me from doing this again next year. But alas.

Interestingly, I was shown this movie earlier today… spooky! It’s freaky what you can hear if you listen closely…

London Ghost (Windows Media Video)

Scotch and sleeping tablets. What a good mix.

My sleep has been so screwed up lately. I can feel so tired that my body actually aches, my mind is numb and my fingers still, yet I still cannot get to sleep.
It’s not that I’m anxious… I don’t know. Maybe subtlely I am. There’s a lot going on at the moment, and even though I’ve now finished exams, I have so many loose ends to tie up and people to see that I’m actually busier than I was beforehand.

Today was my only day off, and I used it to go see my mother, who was in need of some support, and whilst I was in the area I dropped by and had dinner with my father. Didn’t get time to see my brother and his family, but I will on Friday I’m hoping.

The next few weeks offer no release… much of the time will be spent at work, where they are spending nice amounts of money on training me in their systems. Only 2 more weeks of freelance, then I’m a full-time employee! How exciting!

Meanwhile amongst all of this, I have to make amends to Adam for being a bitchy boyfriend over the past few days. Sometimes I don’t always stop to think how much that young man means to me. He puts up with a lot of my shit, and loves me anyway. Can’t argue for much more than that! Plus, *Internet broadcast* he is the best cuddler I have ever known. I was with Mum in a candle shop today, and found Adam a present… a Santa that you can take apart and it’s a candle! Adam absolutely adores Christmas… already we have the tree out (covered in fibre-optics naturally ) and there’s tinsel hanging from everywhere in our apartment! It’s so cute!!!

On a separate tack, I am thinking that I am going to need a new car very soon. Because the front wheels weren’t aligned properly when I got my last new set of tyres put on, they are now completely bald (after only 20,000 km’s!) , and the canvas is showing through on the front left. I can take it to work, but no further. As I want to go to Bathurst this weekend, I have to get the tyres replaced and aligned immediately.

So i’ve been thinking that when I start on my new salary, I will investigate into getting some form of leased car packaging into my salary, and get myself a brand new Subaru Impreza RX Nice, efficient, small, RELIABLE, and all-wheel drive. I’m scared still of ‘Tasha sometimes… she has no grip on the road at the best of times, less when it’s wet, and less again when the tyres are bald. It’s been fun driving these past few days!

Any other models of car in the $15-25k range that are worth it? Leave a comment and let me know!

Gus

One of these days I’ll actually post something proper.

In the meantime, another whacky video sent to me….

Better luck next time, God!
(Windows Media Video)

Hi Gang.
This is not a proper update… I’m procrastinating for my last exam.

This video was sent to me by my dad… heh heh

Good Chair-Lovin’ (Windows Media Video)

If it’s slow to download, be patient. I think I’m going to upgrade my line to 512 / 512 very soon.

So today’s not one of those better days.
I have had 80 minutes sleep in the past two nights, I’ve had a sleeping tablet tonight yet I still can’t sleep.

The exam this morning was … woeful. I sat up for so long last night, building up my confidence in the subject… which was duly torn down as soon as I opened the 3rd sheet of the exam paper. I just couldn’t do it. For some reason I was actaully quite anxious about it. I was hyperventilating and wanting to throw up. That’s not very usual for me.

I walked out 40 minutes early. There was no point prolonging the torture. I am going to enquire about a Special Considering, only because it never hurts to try and if I do manage to get rid of this subject this semester, it cuts an entire year off my uni course.

Then came the other thing tongiht…. the political games are building at my gliding club, and it’s starting to really get to me. With only 3 weeks to go until JoeyGlide, I understandably have to get in as much practice as possible, and the club knows this and wants me to be safe enough to fly with 45 other gliders buzzing around along side of me.

That’s all well and fine, until I find out that certain members of the committee have been criticising me for “not taking the effort” to get up to the club often enough, as well as other small things alluding to me being an irreponsible and unsafe pilot. It not only infuriates me, but really upsets me at the same time, because this kind of treatment that I receive from some of the members are the exact reason why young people are not taking up sports like gliding. There have been points tonight where I’ve been trying to justify whether I should keep flying, but I’m going to leave all that until *after* sleep when I’m not so delerious.

later my pretties

Hello, World

It’s that time again. The night before the exams. Once again, I am utterly unprepared.
My body clock has been so out of whack lately. Until Today, I have been in Nocturnal Mode, getting up at 3pm, studying until 7am, then back to bed. It has its benefits, and its drawbacks.
I went back to day mode because simply I wasn’t looking after myself properly. Irregular meals, sleep at odd hours… but funnily enough it wasn’t stressing me out. I seem to be quite adjusted to it.
I have two exams tomorrow, one quite difficult and one insane. Followed this Friday by another insane one. Last one Tuesday next week.

This is Hell Week. Well and truly. I only hope it will be over soon! I just want to pass… nothing more than that. Just pass. I want to get to graduation day.. that’s it.
I’ve had a rather rough trot at uni, complicated by depression, sexuality issues, glandular fever, suicidal boyfriends, separating parents, parents with cancer, all topped off with a natural aversion to study.
I’ve had enough of uni… I now enjoy the experience of working in the “real world”, and uni is just something that I need to get out of the way.

Sleep now. The end is in sight.

It’s been a long time since I’ve cried.

I let loose tonight though. Poor Adam… sometimes he really does cop my emotions full blast sometimes!

The straw that broke me was the publication of marks of a major assignment I did earlier through the semester. The marks, as you can guess, were worse than woeful, they were the kind of stuff that losers are made of. 4 / 30 I couldn’t believe it! It was 2nd lowest in the class, for an advanced level subject that I actually enjoyed.

I’m hoping that there’s an error. The breakup of the marks showed that for the first two question I scored a perfectly round 0, with 4/7 for the last question. I thought I put in a decent effort.

I’m not usually that upset about marks. You win some, you lose some, but this was just plain wrong. This was a certain failure in the course. All this time I’ve been feeling so proud of myself for achieving such a good balance in life, with a good job and wonderful boyfriend, but I more than likely forgot that I am still a full-time student with 4 subjects to complete this semester. I don’t like my life unravelling like this. The thought that I’ve been deluding myself into happiness was enough to throw me over.

I’ve got a struggle on my hands over the next few days. I’ve begun to settle into a nocturnal rhythm tonight as I have a 1900 – 0700 shift on Sunday night and if I’m in day mode then I get thrown out of whack for 2 days, which I can’t afford at the moment. Also, it means that I have no distractions.

Finding the motivation these days is getting harder. Whilst I’m so near the end, I’ve also been through this so many times that the panic factor that used to drive me just isn’t kicking in. Every now and then though, I get fleeting moments that I *want* to learn, which drives me into short stints of study. So hopefully I will try and build up momentum and see if I can pull off another miracle. It’s not over until I start singing.

The sun is rising… time for bed I think.

Take care all.

Hello again racefans!

Two updates in as many days…. you can tell I’m procrastinating, can’t you?

i think I’m finally get bored of *procrastination*.. it’s getting that bad. I’m now deciding to read my textbook as a break from checking my email for the 40th time.
I don’t know why it is that I hate study so much…. but the idea just makes me want to run for cover! I have to keep reminding myself that if I pass this semester, it will be the last time I have to do a full-time semester!

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One thing that keeps me going however is the thought that when this is over I will get to spend two weeks on a hot dusty airfield in Leeton. I’m flying the DG-300 again this year, but getting some practice in it will prove to be a little hassle. I have flown perhaps twice in the past 6 months, including my annual check, so hopefully I’ll still be current for when I want to get some practice in! I’ve also had to really schmoozle work a few times because they keep forgetting to give me the time off. They’ve started my full-time contract on Dec 3 , which is also the time I plan to go to competition.

I’m also busy saving all the money together for the competition. The club requires $500 deposit which is still only half the insurance excess should I prang it. Then there’s at least another $1200 for the competition itself, not including the $200 entry fee I’ve already paid. Why is it that I have to choose some of the most expensive hobbies? It’s worth it though… I doubt I’ll have a chance at winning, but I will definately enjoy the break from the city, and spend a few hours cooling off at 10,000′ (it’s actually quite cold up there! Best place to be on a 45 deg. day).

it’s going to be an interesting year this year, especially after I earnt myself a reputation last year. I’m sure I will have fun though!