VolaciousNet

Hello everyone!

It’s been so long since an update, that I decided to do a voice post for the hell of it.
I actually wanted to use my new Voice-over-IP phone line (hardware VOIP, not skype) to call the states and use the LJ automated system, but it’s not working yet. Oh well
So here it is… listen and I promise a text post will be coming sometime later this week!

Often, I forget the power of music. Listening to it is one thing, creating it something else completely.

I found myself a little tense tonight, a touch upset, so I got myself out of bed, and walked to my piano, which I have neglected for oh-so-many months. A few tea-lights and column candles for illumination, and a waiting silence.

It wasn’t until I had stopped learning the piano that I realised how calming yet intoxicating playing music is. So, as corny as it sounds, I played sweet nothings lit only by candlelight.

I don’t think anyone could ever accuse me of not being an emotional person. I have a few pieces in the repetoire, and every time I a select few of them I aspire to lose myself more in it. The two that have always caught my heart was Beethoven’s Sonata No.14 Mvt 1 (commonly known as “Moonlight Sonata“), and a song based on Chopin’s Nocturne in E flat. Both well-known, technically very simple to play, yet so haunting and complex when played softly and somberly.

I never saw the emotion in music when I was younger. Muscially quite gifted, I somehow drifted away from there never knowing what I could have done with it. I think sometimes it was the persuit of other ambitions just clouded and overshadowed that part of me, but now I think I never really understood that part of me to begin with.

Hi everyone.

Those that know me journalling style know that I will go a long time without updating when things are seriously fucked up and I can’t talk about it (at least not online).
It’s been a very emotional few days and I’ve learnt a lot about myself. And made some huge mistakes too. Maybe there will be a time to talk about my mistakes and what has happened, but now isn’t the time. It’s not in my nature to be cryptic, so I apologise.

It’s funny though how it really takes a major crisis in life to learn who you really are and want you really want, and to sort out some very old issues that have been troubling you for ages but never faced. Too often we can go through life and sweet seemlingly insignificant issues under the rug, but if we keep doing it we are going to trip up.