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So today was Adam’s birthday… yay! Don’t bother asking how old he is… he’ll never admit it!

I hope he had a good time… I certainly tried my best to make it an enjoyable day.

I’m coming up to my 25th next month. I have no idea what I would want to do for it or even whether I want to celebrate it or not. I feel like it’s time for me to really splash out and have a good time, but for some reason it just seems like way too much effort.

One of my New Year’s “wouldn’t it be nice if’s” (not as serious as a New Year’s Resolution) is that I would like to be more social, and somehow reclaim some form of life… I think over the past few years there have been so many stresses and seclusions that I’ve lost contact with many of my friends and nights at home, whilst enjoyable, are becoming far too common.

Our boy still loves the water!

Greetings all! It’s been a long time I wish I could say that the reason I haven’t been posting much is because I’ve been having such a great time, enjoying xmas and New Year’s, but sadly it’s been a far more stressful time than such holidays should be. Christmas was spent with my family, my mother predominantly, and a quick trip to see my father. Mum was ok this Christmas… I was fearing it would end up like other years where she breaks out into tears, but she held herself together this year. Time must be healing old wounds. As for New Year’s, I was on call, so I couldn’t drink much, however that didn’t stop me from winding up in a hot tub drinking Moet in Vaucluse with 4 scantily-dressed beautiful girls… life is tough sometimes! Only one thing would have made it better… no guesses there

So you’d think it’d be peachy, right? Unfortunatley not. Home situations have made life very tense, and I’m struggling a lot to maintain some form of self-control and not burst into a blubbering mess. Don’t get me wrong… Adam and I are not going to break up! However certain … logistic issues… are causing much tension. I hope you appreciate I can’t really divulge much of it online… Adam does not like me posting up our marital problems for all the world to see. It’s a bit frustrating, as I created this blog so I could vent my issues and guage feedback, but unfortunately Adam is not like that.

Issues like these always come up in long-term relationships though, at one point or another. The real trick is how one gets through it. I’ve been doing some “relationsip counselling” of my own to others lately, and having been through many of their problems myself, the answer seems all too easy as I’ve had to find the answers myself when it arose.

(Generally speaking) It always irks me when so many couples find cause to break up because something big has happened and they find they aren’t enjoying themselves anymore… they let their present emotions, whether it be anger or frustration, govern one of the biggest decisions of their life. I think in such cases, one must always look back on times past that were enjoyed, and guage just how temporary the current situation is. After all, such crises are often temporary, even though it doesn’t seem that way at the time. It also occurs too often that people blame their partner for them being depressed or anxious… although sometimes partners are a major factor, I think you have to look at yourself and why you are feeling that way. It’s way too easy to blame others.

So as for my current state… I know it is temporary, and whilst frustrated with Adam, the best way I can get through it is to manage my own anxiety and keep it from affecting other areas of my life, e.g. work. One of the avenues I’ve been thinking of is meditation… I’m told it is good for “clearing the mind”, something I am completely unable to do at the present time.

To close off … I’d just like to say a big thanks to Dan for such a thoughtful present he gave to me when I got back from Adelaide… it’s a graduation bear that he knitted himself, complete with the colours for my degree! It really meant a lot to me… thankyou!!